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Well, being loaded is what people always hope to , be it intelligent or rich. If you have the dilligence and intelligence you would surely want to be the creme de la creme or the classic example among the other guys to attract the girls or friends. If you are not the savouir- faire type, then it would be too bad. I’ve quoted a saying from the girls that portrayed their minds on 5C&1H which is Cash, Credit Card, Condominium, Car, Caring and Handsome. The oblivion girls would surely state this in their first expression when they know that their friends have new boy friend " wah…is her boy friend rich? or most importantly like lee hom or Rain?" and if the both criterion is met, then the girls would give a huge sign of relieved or you can see greeny countenance where they are jealous. Otherwise, they girl would say "yer, why the girl so bad taste one" or "Poor that girl". So guys out there, no offence but make sure you are fully overloaded or else you’ll be segregated and treated like a slave. I’m sure my avvid readers would be wondering why am I always giving opinions but not telling my own story. Ladies and gentlemen, I would like to tell you all that it has been ages since i’ve met with true love. Even the one i love most, i decided to give it a break and not giving any contact with her…

The apex of the trees swayed as the wind gusted off my mind. The wind that caressed my sunken cheeks somehow suddenly seeps into my mind. Those sweet memories i’ve encountered and so happen to be like a fantasy was just a pile of junk in the bin. Sometimes there is an urge of seeking the remnants of memories in the bin but upon the scar i had, the courage deadened. There is a friend of mine questioned me about my life. Well, what can i say about my life? Dull, dry and demotivated were my norms and i can conclude that nothing is perfect in this world. Even if you want to seek for a simple life, you’ll still belated with difficulties. Finding a simple, kind and normal one would be an uphill task and sometimes beleuguard lot too. Previously, i’ve got the creme de la creme amongst the rest, but after the shock i’ve received, simple one is the sole target i’ve been looking for. I hate cutting queues where we should abide the rule, but sometimes it is inevitable……..

Life is full of bolt from the blue, things strike and go when we were oblivious about it. We can be unaware of imminent threats nor disaster but we still cannot prepare ourselves for the worst mother nature of all kind, which is relationship. Sometimes, friendship is like a transition state of the chemical equation. It varies where it can form bonds with other chemical solutions. Sometimes, our intuition triggers us of the aftermath between the friendship, but since everything in this world is inevitable, we have to encounter it and try to solve it. Same goes to love, there was once where my friends’ beloved is leaving to singapore to further her studies, he weeped his eyes and tears welled in his weary eyes. I asked him is it the end of the world, he kept quiet. It is only leaving to singapore to study and not breaking up with him, so why fuss about it? Then he was back to the norm whereby the joyful plump attitude was with him. Then, it was also once where he almost missed the golden opportunity to see his beloved where she was just next beside to him. Well, is that called fate? Nuisance, i called that, well let me tell you something, there is no fate in the world’s dictionary. It is working hard for it that counts. Well, luckily for my friend, he borrowed my car and sped off like nobodies business to get his happiness. I felt happy for him as he really worked for it and not weeping rigorously on the bed like a cry baby. That is a good kickstart for him. I regretted for my life when i had one but i never really appreciated it. It was not only once i had it but more than once. Well obviously i did not really care for the one i love, i never really put effort about caring her. That is why all were taken from me. I really regretted and i hate cut queues. Now i can say that i failed in everything even in courting as well. Is it my mistake or fate?

Well, it had been ages since i went back to my secondary school and alas today i grabbed my perspiration and entered the school main gate with desire. It was my school’s sports day and it gives my nostalgic feeling as i was one of the athlete who was present during the previous sports day to receive the medal. Well, i was certainly proud to be there, but things have changed. Ever since the incident happened, i was resilient but yet it was unforgettable. I saw some of them who was present, with their expressions shivered and their countenance tells me they have things to tell me but shy. I do not understand why chances are not given and maintanence of the relationship was a disaster. Am i really that unlucky or bad, or perhap the worst kind? That still floating in my oblivious mind.

Well, it has been a while since i go back to kl. I was sitting in the call lab onlining while waiting for my friends to finish their task. I saw few of the students were playing computer games (DOTA) which gives me a nostalgic feeling when i was at kl. I really missed my friends back in kl and i wished i could go back if not because i’ve joined basketball competition. I was really in dilemma cause this is the golden oppotunity for me to play with my friends in a competition.Well, perhaps i was to obsessed with Dota which is why i was like so homesick. Let me tell you guys something, it has been 6 weeks since i played that game which also tells you that i’ve almost did not go back to meet them for 2 months. I missed thse moments where i hang out with nik, chih hann and jeshua plus not forgetting kien poon, ser keong, cheow soon and fred. Having holidays was really fun, i did enjoy to the max, but the aftermath was really sick. Back in utp, i’ve learned that my friends have new hobbies, which are gossips and many people had changed including some friend of mine. Well some of them have their beloved and tit makes me reminisce over the things i’ve encountered but it had been a history. Lately, someone accidentally told me that a girl who was phobia over her ex found her cure and start to pour her feelings back on the same guy. Well it was a miracle i guess, though i was a bit dissapointed but i would like to wish them here all the best. I can say that he year of 2007 was not a year of romance for me. After hearing the song of Tian Tian Quan, i understand that love cannot be forced, well, i’ve experienced it before, i know how it feels when a girl does not give respond to you or perhaps the one you treasured most being taken away swiftly. Staying here in the hostel during the weekends really make me sick, and lonely, i really hope to go back to kl as soon as possible………..i missed everyone in kl…

It started with a starry night and countless fascination of stars in the vast blue sky, i was sauntering back to my hostel hoping for my phone to ring as my day has come. It has been ages since my phone rang busily and i was like a cat on hot bricks waiting for any message to reach my phone. Well, out of the bewilderment, my phone stuttered and rang, i was so curious who would be the first to wish me on my day and of course it was chuang hwee and ming hui, haha i did not know it would be them as they are so quiet like a silent mode the whole day which is not like them. Messages keep coming in as i replied until late night where my weary eyes could not stand any longer that i had to lie down on my cosy and comfortable bed in my hostel and sleep. On the morning itself, after finishing my seeming endless physics class, i trudged home the undulating path hoping for surprise and yes, my friends gave me one..haha thanks to [wenzhen, syn yang, sing tat, wee jin, johnny, chuang hwee, ming hui, chee sheng, foo piew, lee chon, yuan huang, min chin and all of them] [haha too long already], they gave me a real madrid jersey,,,omg i was like on heavan as i wanted to purcase that jersey long long time ago…haha thank you guys…and i wore it back to kl where i travel by bus. Ok the threshold of the story begins here, i was in the dilapidated bus station waiting for the bus to appear and i had already waited for an hour because the bus is scheduled to reach by 5.30 and i’m still waiting when it is already 6.30 and i was half snoozing away from the real world and suddenly, there were people shouting at their top of their lungs saying that the bus had arrived and i was so relieved where i hope onto the bus and here we go!! In the bus, hui ling and hui yee was calling me to ask where am i and i was like so sorry but to tell them i’ll be late for an hour because of the bus driver driving in his own paradise world [slow]. and there were the humans going to toilet and the other passengers had to wait for them. i was praying fervantly for the bus to arrive quickly and here comes the "butters best friend" the "JAM"…omg, it was like so speechless and i told hui yee to start hui lings farewell party without me as i was so sorry about that. Well, once again i had to fly aeroplane..haha cantonese version…definitely i was really mad about everything including myself for not planningroperly, sigh…it was jam here there and everywhere and i had no choice but to settle down in the bus. I was really restless as i heaved a mouthful of air and hummed my favourite song to keep myself accompanied, calm, cool and collected for the peep of the day. Finally, the bus reached jalan duta where my parents were waiting for me. I followed them home and i was keeping myself mute until back home, as i step down from the car, my tears welled in my eyes as my heart crashed onto the ground into pieces where i was so down for spending my entire birthday on the bus, i walked up the stairs to my room and i slammed the bathroom door hard. i took my shower while lashing out my feelings with almighty, i hit the wall several times thinking of my stupidity for the day. What a birthday it was to spend on the bus and fly aeroplane to my friends farewell party. I almost cried as i was in pain and i could not withstand it but to keep on splashing the warm water on my face. however, i was not that sad after thinking that actually before this birthday, my previous ones were not that good after all as it was once where my phone was totally silent as though my phone battery had gone dried up where everyone were forgotten about my birthday. i came back to my senses and i wiped myself clean and i walked out of my bathroom ang getting ready to sleep and forget about this awful birthday of mine wasted on the bus. My brother was acting strange as he asked me to go down to take something and i adhere to his words. As i opened the door, i saw a candle light, i thought i was dreaming, i saw khai yaan, i was like so shocked and speechless as what is she doing at my house with a cake lighted up with a candle in the middle of the night and my heart pumped like a runaway horse and out of the blue, the other door opened and my friends [hui yee, jing ling, jeshua, niko, fred, chih hann, kar ying, kim hock and jun rong popped out] i was like so touched when they eventually started the birthday song and….haha luckily it was not a dream…keke…i was so delighted and speechless. Haha definitely it was my best birthday of all. Thank you so much everyone…haha

then soon after my friends left, i started to ponder around and saw my favourite artist album, cyndi…omg..it is the latest one and i was like so shock man…haha..thank you [hau keat, hui ling, pei yin and eu jin and especially my pal...hui yee..haha thank you for planning and jun rong , kim hock..sorry to make your parents scold ler..kaka next time my treat ok..haha] well lastly, khai yaan, jessie viv and karying…thank you for the real madrid hanger.haha i love it very very much man..how you girls know i like the club…hmmm..got spy har..haha thanks anyway…keke…

well that is my story for the year of my birthday…rather touching for me…haha see you in the next post…thank you for reading too

(continue) Killing two birds with one stone is what people have in their mind, owning two hearts at the same time is what people used to do in this cumulative society.

Sounds familiar?Aha you’ve hit the main point. People used to start their love life at a very young age. You see…like i’ve mentioned in the previous concise pieces….love at first sight might be benign but can be also imminent. I myself have seen what many people seldom see…the excalibur..haha..this title sounds weird right?why i name it the excalibur…it has the pioneer meaning to the story i’m going to tell you guys now. It was once under the weavy heaty afternoon, this boy, well i can say is an ordinary boy like anyone else, saunter along the pavement grey pasted on the ground, weeping his weary eyes, seeking for true answers as well as true love. You see, lightning can never strike a place twice on the same time and same moment but lucky for this guy, out of the blue, while dragging his lanky feet back home, he heard someone calling his nickname. At that time, his nickname was somehow linked with a subdued shell creature crawling around for freedom. Definitely, the guy was not really please with that name and he did not even give a damn nor look and he just walked away. But that was actually the turning point of his life in love. He actually got in contact with the girl accidentally under certain circumstances…….(to be continued)

(continue) You see…sometimes boredom can kill ones love and feelings..this is what the girl from the previous story did. She was like playing with words and of course the word break up slips into her boogie mind. The guys heart pounces off his skeletal chest and crashes onto the ground to millions of unsolved puzzle.  Certain  couple broke up partly because of the untamed libido in control of them that leads them to blind alley. You see, love cannot be sustained by just penetrating yourself into others physically, it must be done mentally. Same here, perhaps the girl thinks that the guy is not handsome nor muscular enough. ok then too bad then….On my other hand, it was time for the guy to move on….here goes another story. The chronology begins with good friends to couples and to enemies. You might be wondering what does this means…well let me share with you the story here, this particular guy was an avvid joker where he saunters along the classrooms and play around with his dirty jokes. well i believe this is where he got his good friends..haha…a girl..slightly younger than him made him her good friend. They both were really like the thunder and lightning thudding around every corner together and tuition as well. that guy definitely have some feelings for her and of course they started……

eh guys…you all sure bored one le if i continue like this…haha i’ve emulated it
so it will go like this…

(during the process of breaking up)
girl: are you alright? you seems ill….don’t worry i will accompany you
boy: thanks a lot ( bit of tears)
[hold hands]
girl: you take a rest first..then you will be alright after that
boy: don’t want…i want to have a look at you while i’m not tired
girl: you rest first..
boy: ok…

{in the hospital}
[on the phone}
girl: are you alright?
boy: i’m ok
girl: then you rest le
boy: i’m sorry about just now
girl: nevermind, forget about it..its not important anymore
boy: hah>>why??
girl: when we’re back i’ll explain to you
boy: waitttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
girl:{hang up the phone}

NEXT DAY
boy: hello, are you there
girl: hi….erm…i got something to explain to you
boy: ok…good or bad??
girl: wait you must listen finish what i say first ok…chill and cool down
boy: ok go ahead
girl: i think you are a good boy and i don’t deserve to be your girl friend..
boy: why??sob sob
girl: i’m just too immature
boy: nooooooo….you are good just as you are
girl: no i’m not….we can be best friends you see..but not couples
boy: why..
girl: because i’m not mature enough to have a boy friend
boy: hah……………….(tears welled in his eyes)
boy: ok then…………( to be continued)

(continue) Well of course this is what i told him…"I am sorry my friend, I have no idea at all,  cause  I myself also facing this type of problem dude." Of course  this friend of mine was speechless, hey tell me everyone in this world is  definitely oblivious about  their secondary school love life. I am not born  a picturesque minded person, of course  i have my flaws too and  i cannot  give you any suggestions. Let  me  tell you a story, this would be  my first  story and there would be more to come. haha..ok…it was once a time, a particular guy, of course as usual words uttered by a a young kid at most 15 of age could be childish i believe, just have his feelings overwhelmed his thoughts that he was confused of what is he doing. so at the beginning during the primary school, he did have his heart  griply tighten onto a girl. this girl   basically was the first that attracted his mind, but lady luck was not with him as the girl fell for his pal. however, that was just the primary school. Here comes the big shot, at the age of 15, a girl which is at that moment was the creme de la creme whereby she has everything that guys look into…erhmmmmmm not what you all think ar…is friendliness and happiness. Out of the bewilderment, on one fateful day, this girl smsed him and asked him who he admired? Of course the guy simply pluck in one name, then the girl explained to him her feelings, out of the blue, the guy asked for the girls permission to start as couples. Eventually, everything went well until one week before the PMR results announced. The girl lashed out her thoughts to the guy and guys and girls..you guys think la..will it be the positive one??……………………………………..(to be continued)

sometimes, one may ponder about fantasies, faerieland, mysteries, magic, and even romance, but have any of you heard of the neverland? getting chocolate, flowers, rings, surprises and whatelse…presents for the beloveds birthday or of course "the very feared by the wallet of the guys" [Valentine's day] where guys seems to spend most of their savings just for this red letter day. The crux of the question is, does it really send your message to your beloved? You may have spend hundreds of dollars hoping for your beloved to give you an inch of smile but on the other hand, she might have the thinking of breaking up with you. Does the hundreds you spent, worth an inch of smile from your beloved? Sweet, sour, salty and even miasma of depression. this is what some of them encountered during the aftermath of breaking up. The so called "sensation" of breaking up is what most people don’t want to but because of the imminent catastrophe or perhaps the easier way " i think i’m not suitable with you" or "i’m not mature enough" find its way to the malicious tongue of the beholder. Things that does not want to happen came to fruition, and the victim of the breaking up had to suffer for ages. This is life. Well, definitely, its not an outlandish sight nor unprecendented to my eyes because it has become a norm to the society. Basically, I’ve encountered it before and of course i paid my price for it. But the vital point here is that, if you already have a part of you, why go search and destroy peoples hope and happiness? must breaking up an inevitable process for people like all of us here? must dumping be allocated into the breaking process? must someone get hurt in all this process? Well you guys know yourself……..and it was once where one of my friends came and told me that he was suffering from gamut of emotion {sadness}…he was very very very very very absolutely down about his love life…he told me that his gf left him for a guy. Well guess what i told him????? ……(to be continued)